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You Lied to Me About God

A Memoir

by Jamie Marich, PHD
Jamie Marich, PHD
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"An intimate and important memoir of deconstructing and reconstructing faith after abuse ... a spiritual memoir that does not shy away from abuse, queerness, or the multifaceted character of God." —Kirkus Reviews (starred review)
A courageous, vulnerable, and spellbinding memoir that explores with visceral impact what happens when harm starts at home—and is exalted as God’s will
For readers of Unfollow and Jesus Land: Jamie Marich explores spiritual abuse, intergenerational trauma, and weaponized faith
At nine years old, Jamie Marich asked God to end it all.
Doing it herself would be an irrevocable sin: an affront to the church and her father’s God. She prayed instead for the rapture, an accident, a passive death—anything to stop the turmoil of feeling wrong: wrong in her body; wrong in her desires; wrong in her faith in a merciful God that could love her wholly as she was.
You Lied to Me About God explores the schisms that erupt when faith is weaponized, when abuse collides with the push-and-pull of a mixed religious upbringing tyhat tells you: no matter which path you choose—no matter what you know in your heart to be true—you’re probably damned.
With resilience, strength, and gut-punching clarity, Marich takes readers through a tumultuous coming-of-age marked by addiction, escapism, spiritual manipulation, misogyny, and abuse. She shares with unflinching detail the complicity of her mother’s silence and the lengths her father went to assert dominance and control over her body, her desires, her identity—and even her eternal soul—”for her own good” and with a side of televangelistic hellfire.
Hitting a breaking point, Marich embarks on pilgrimage: from shrines in Croatia to ashrams in Florida, she reckons with what it means to come home to a faith that heals and accepts her wholly as she is: in her queerness, in her body, and in her deep relationship to an expansive and loving God.

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    October 15, 2024

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      • ISBN: 9798889842200
      • File size: 288134 KB
      • Duration: 10:00:16

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    • English

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    • Kirkus

      Starred review from September 15, 2024
      A spiritual memoir that does not shy away from abuse, queerness, or the multifaceted character of God. Marich, an acclaimed therapist and author of several books, grew up between religions--her mother's Catholicism and the Evangelicalism to which her father converted when she was young. In the confusion bred by her opposing yet equally devout parents, Marich learned to hate her body and fear hell, symptoms faced by many survivors of spiritual abuse. "Not only did they lie to me about God," Marich writes, reckoning with the long-lasting effects of her childhood. "They lied to me aboutme. My body. My sexuality. My essence as a person." As Marich became an adult and continued her own spiritual searching, she uncovered those lies and began the spiritual healing journey that would allow her to engage in the therapeutic and activist work she does to help many other survivors like herself. With tender honesty, Marich writes about the abuse she experienced from her parents, especially her father, as well as all the people who have helped her through addiction recovery, in learning to embrace her queerness and restore her faith. This faith, placed in a queer, feminine divine constructed from several traditions, has given Marich the love and belonging she never found in the narrow, fear-filled faiths of her childhood and early adulthood. Though readers who did not grow up religious may struggle to relate with Marich's spiritual story, it will likely resonate with readers of any faith, past or present. At the end of each chapter, "expressive arts" prompts invite readers to engage in the work of examining their relationship to spirituality by constructing their own spiritual memoirs. An intimate and important memoir of deconstructing and reconstructing faith after abuse.

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